Cheshire Tribal

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I’m big sad that Félix was the one to go to night, this wasn’t his time to go. Throughout the day I began to feel like I was gonna be in danger with this vote, up until the final 10 minutes I genuinely was going to vote for Aleem. It was when Aleem and Félix both confirmed my worst suspicion, that Sarah thought I was sketch and untrustworthy. Then there was no turning back. Here's how I saw my options in those final minutes:

1)I vote Aleem and then Félix, Brenton, and Aleem (who was guaranteed to survive this round) see me as not trustworthy. I end up get getting votes and my ass is gone because I knew where Aleem, Félix and Brenton were voting (3 votes on Rizo for sure). That left me with one vote for Aleem and 4 other votes up in the air. If Alicia, Dayle, Rizo, and Sarah all pooled their votes on me then it would be a 4 to 3 to 1 vote. Not a great outcome for me.

2)I vote Rizo along with Aleem, Félix, and Brenton and hope they all pooled their votes for another person, Aleem in a perfect world, and we hit a tie. We see if anyone will flip. Worst case we go to rocks, I ain’t scared. I have a 1 in 5 chance to get the boot.

3)I vote Rizo on the 1st vote and it ties 4 to 4. In the revote I flip and Brenton goes out, but the other side loses trust in me for not voting with them initially I will always be the 5th wheel on the Alicia, Rizo, Sarah and Dayle team.

There was no great outcome for me beyond just surviving this round. I like to think I am self-aware for the most part and the reality is that I backed my own self into a corner long before tribal. I made as many people as I could try to feel good with me and then it was bound to backfire. I can hold myself accountable for that.


Here’s what I can take away from this, Aleem drained his idol (and misplayed it after I told him not to), Aleem does not have a vote next round, I still have my immunity idol necklace, and I am now Brenton’s number #1 ally in this game. I am PRAYING that we only have one more round before merge so if I lose, I can play that immunity idol necklace and force them to turn on Brenton (which would be a huge asshole move on their part after writing down his name and then comforting him right after), voting out Aleem (which is best if we want our tribe to stick together moving forward) or they have to turn on their own (which I personally would love to watch). However, I really want us to win this next challenge so I don’t have to use it before merge.

Here are my feelings toward all people right now

Aleem-You suck. I told you not to use your idol, you didn’t listen. I told you to use your disadvantage this round, you didn’t listen. If you would have listened to me, you could have kept your idol, had Brenton go home, created chaos on the other side, and showed me that you trust me. You now are in a shitty place next round and you’ve got no one to blame but yourself. You were quick to throw me under the bus the second tribal was over. You are dead to me in this game. You are losing allies, if we go to tribal again, your ass is gone. If you make it to the merge, you are going to run to Anders, Malcom, Leanna, and Anna Lynn. If I have anything to do with it, I won’t let you get that far.

Alicia-Did I initially want to push you to go this round, HELL YES I DID. Did I sit down and actually see that to not be a smart move for this round and then tried to look out for you, yes. Do I see how those two things conflict, absolutely. We are all about personal growth here in this game. I tried to push Aleem with you, I tried tipping you off about his idol, I had a heart to heart chat with you, and I compared notes with you about Aleem. You lied just as much to me as I did to you. I am pissed, but I am willing to genuinely start with a clean slate with you.

Brenton-I love this man on a personal level as we have really bonded over our faith. We bonded over our Christian based testimony and I learned a lot about Brenton’s upbringing. I empathize with him on so many levels. I knew if I showed him that I was willing to go to rocks for him, he would give me his undying loyalty. However, just in general, some people in life are worth going to rocks for. Brenton is one of them. I am 100% his #1 ally moving forward in this game.

Dayle- On a personal level, you’re super awesome. Game-wise, I’m over you, I had to hear you rehash everything from the last tribal again and again. It’s an exhausting storyline in which you need to work that out with Lance and the people who actually voted for you. I was honest with you when I said that I was not going to vote for you this round and I again looked out for you and am getting nothing in return.

Rizo- this round you were the person I most betrayed and I genuinely feel bad that I made you feel like you were expendable. That wasn’t cool at all. All day when I told you I was voting Aleem, I wasn’t lying to you. I hid that fact that Aleem had an idol because I thought I could convince Aleem to not use it and use that as collateral damage on Aleem later on. With all that being said, you were as absolute DICK after tribal to me and don’t think I will forget that. Tribal concludes and you have the AUDACITY to belittle me in a private message. If you know me at all, you know that belittling me and treating me differently than the two other men that made the exact same move as me is. not. it. You went to comfort Brenton WHEN YOU WROTE HIS NAME DOWN, NOT ONCE BUT TWICE and quickly went to Aleem and hear him out. You then chose to approach my conversation by being a condescending asshat to me. THAT. AIN’T. IT. You later asked to hop on a call with me to get all your anger out and hear my side. On that call you made me cry and I don’t know if you really understood just how shitty you were to me until you saw me get emotional. Only after that did you apologize to me. I think you felt bad and recognize that wasn’t cool, but I was held to a different standard that Aleem and Brenton. Grow from this because if the tables were turned, I would have never spoken to you like that. You were willing to throw votes alongside Dayle, Alicia, and Sarah all on Brenton and make me the sacrificial lamb to cast the throw vote. Don’t think I don’t see you over there. I’m gonna work on bettering our relationship, but know if I have to cut you, I will.

Sarah-I feel like a fool because I really opened myself up to you and then you turned around and told both Aleem and Félix that you were sketched out by me. This is why I try not to be vulnerable with people in games. I really hope we can work things out because I really like you and still want to work with you. I am holding out on you, we shall see. But don’t get it twisted you still lied to me. Let’s start off fresh.


Tonight, I am pissed, I have lost my #1 ally in the game, I feel betrayed, and I am an outcast on this tribe. You BETTER BELIEVE I am plotting my revenge.

Tomorrow, I am reassessing and recognizing that I need these people because Anders, Leanna, and Anna Lynn have nothing to go off of to trust me. I have never worked with them and if I magically make it to the end, and those three are on Jury, they can’t vouch for my game.

My game isn’t over and I won’t feel defeated for long.